You ever wonder if we got all the things we wished for, would it really make us happier? Or would we just end up wanting more and end up in a perpetual state of depression?
I recently got something I've been hoping for, it's something I've been thinking off for a while. Well, after I got it I wondered, maybe it was a mistake? Maybe I was better off without it? Maybe because I got it, things would be different? Not necessarily in a bad way, but just different. Maybe, I'd even end up more despondent than before?
I wonder maybe I'm not so happy now that I got it. I ask my self so many questions! Questions that earlier did not eat at me as much. What's worse is, I know I want more now, and I'm so sure I won't get any more.
Some would conclude that what I got was given to me by mistake. That maybe I didn't even deserve it. Of course, I'd like to think I deserved what I got, but I still wonder that maybe just maybe I was better off without it.
(If I come off incoherent right now, it's cause my thoughts have been incoherent for a while, that and I just downed a bottle of Port Wine. Chances are my thoughts are probably incoherent because of the Port Wine, but I like to believe I can hold my liquor!)
So I know now, that what I got was a "mistake", in that moment what I received may have made sense, maybe even had some meaning to it. But (and trust me, there is always a but!) in the grand scheme of things "it doesn't mean anything", that maybe "I should just not dwell upon it and let it be". Knowing this, would I allow for the mistake to happen again?
The answer is Simple. The answer is a simple, resounding Yes.
I would let all of it happen again. Just because a few people feel it's a mistake, doesn't always make it a mistake. It doesn't have to mean more than what it did for a moment. But then, I believe life is just a string of moments put together. Finally and this is the part that compels me to answer with a resounding Yes, even if, it was just for a moment. A moment that maybe lasted just twenty seconds... It felt so Right!
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Go to Sleep your Drunk!!
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...food for thought! If it felt right, even for 20 seconds, it is right! having said that, don't murder someone you hate because it feels right for more than 20 seconds, even for the rest of your life!!!plus, i have always found that you should listen to people but do what you think is right providing you don't hurt people you care for consciously... enough advice!!!
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